Journal Entry

"And breathe...just breathe" -Anna Nalickr

It's 7:20am and I take a moment to sit and breathe as I gaze out the window of the Crary Lab at the sea ice. This is one of my favorite places to write and I came here to feel the calm. My brain shifts between excitement and nervousness. Both are causing my stomach to feel like butterflies are having a party in there.

Amy looking out the window of the Crary Lab library at sea ice and mountains in the distance.Amy Osborne looking out the window of the Crary Lab library

I am very excited to be joining the research team for the first time out on the ice today! This morning, at breakfast, Jean Pennycook a former PolarTREC teacher who is now down here supporting penguin research, said to me, "This is really day one and it will be a beautiful and amazing day." I felt my smile grow and grow as I ate my oatmeal with apricots and raisins.

"I am excited and I'm a bit nervous, too," I replied.

"Why are your nervous?" she asked.

I searched my thoughts to figure out exactly where the nervous feeling was coming from. This feeling of anxiousness around new situations isn't totally new for me but as I get older, for some reason, it's been bubbling up more and more.

"I want to be helpful, I want to learn, but make sure I'm not in the way or mess up anything. And I hope I have the right clothes!"

In my mind, I was thinking my desire to do things perfectly sometimes paralyzes me. Jean assured me my clothes would be adequate and reminded me to enjoy the day.

Clothing laid out to be worn under Extreme Cold Weather gear in Antarctica.These are the clothes I wear under my Extreme Cold Weather gear. 2 long underwear bottoms, one pair of fleece pants, 2 pairs of socks, 2 longsleeved long underwear shirts, 1 short sleeved wool shirt, a fleece jacket, a down jacket-until I can get to my red parka, 1 pair liner gloves, 1 pair mittens, two neck gaiters, goggles, and two hats.

I passed the rest of the research team, smiling in the dining hall and in the hallway of the lab as they finished up final details like packing a lunch, filling thermoses with hot water, and gathering gear. Their smiles made me feel less nervous and made space for excitement to overtake me...

I'm in Antarctica!

I'm going out on the sea ice!

I'm going to get to watch and support the incredible and important research going on here!

I am fortunate to be with an amazing group of researchers!

Ok...I'm ready!

Time to put on my extreme cold weather gear and get to the dive locker.

Three women getting ready in front of the dive hut.Dr. Anne Todgham, Denise Hardoy, and Dr. Amy Moran (left to right) stand in front of the dive locker preparing to head out on the ice.

Hours pass....

It's 5:00 and I just had one of the best days ever! From the pisten bully ride with incredible views, to watching the divers get ready to head under the ice, to enjoying the beautiful weather and unbelievable silence out on the ice, to seeing what we collected, this day was packed with new experiences. Here's a glimpse into some highlights. Stay tuned for a longer more immersive video experience and to find out why we are out there studying life under the ice!

The views:

sea ice with Mt. Erebus Mt. Erebus, Antarctica viewed from McMurdo Sound sea ice. Sea Ice with Mt. Erebus in the backgroundWe traveled along some very slick looking sea ice. The amazing thing is it's not slippery. Pisten bully driving through rafted iceNavigating a pisten bully through rafted ice…this is ice that has been split apart and then come back together in a jumble. A view of islands across the sea iceA view of islands, Tent Island and Inaccessible Island, that are surrounded by sea ice.

Arriving at the dive hut:

Pisten Bully arriving at a yellow and blue diving hut on the sea icePisten bully pulling up to the dive hut at Evans Wall near Cape Evans, Antarctica. Amy Osborne enters the yellow and blue dive hut at Evans Wall near Cape Evans.Amy Osborne entering the dive hut at at Evans Wall near Cape Evans, Antarctica Karla Hiedelberg walking on the sea ice past the spot where the rock meets the iceKarla Heidelberg walking past the spot where the rock meets the ice. Apparently this spot where the rock meets the ice looks amazingly eery in the ocean

What an amazing and knowledgeable group of people. They dive into negative temperatures with dry suits on near the rocky and icy shore edge. And the do this while also collecting specimens to be studied back in the labs. The divers astound me and I am humbled in their presence:

Divers gathered around a hole in the ice preparing to dive to the sea below.The divers Mandy Frazier, Rob Robbins, Steve Rupp, Amy Moran, and Aaron Toh prepare to dive into the borehole that will take them into the ocean below the sea ice. Diver's fins gathered around a hole in the sea ice.As the divers prepare to head down into the depths of the sea they dangle their colorful fins over the edge of the hole.

Gathering data:

Amy and Graham place an instrument into the dive hole to measure and record the dissolved oxygen at different depths.Graham Lobert reads off the dissolved oxygen at different depths as Amy Osborne records the information.

While the divers were collecting things and Graham was dive tending, some of us took a moment to enjoy the remarkably warm sunny day on the ice. At our dive site there was almost no wind so we basked in the -9°C/16°F temperatures. The most surprising thing on the ice is the absolute silence. Since there was no wind everything around me was still and I didn't hear a sound:

Amy Osborne in a lawn chair eating a sandwich on the sea ice.The day was beautiful. A perfect day for Amy Osborne to eat lunch in a lawn chair on the sea ice. Evans Wall, Near Cape Evans, Antarctica

Headstands are hard...especially in bunny boots!

Failed attempt at a headstand on the iceAmy Osborne's second failed attempt at a headstand on the ice. One of these days…

Back home:

Pisten Bully driving on the sea ice in front of McMurdo Station, AntarcticaHeading home. The Pisten Bully heads back to McMurdo town. Sea spiders and nudibranch egg cases in a tank of waterThe sea spiders and nudibranch egg cases, they are the white spirals, that were collected on our diving journey are placed into this tank.

In the end I had plenty of clothes and learned a lot. What a great day!

Amy Osborne standing on the sea ice with arms widespread Amy Osborne on the sea ice

Comments

Sarah S.

What a wonderful first day! I'm still almost three months out from my expedition and I can feel all the nervousness starting to percolate. I'm glad things are going so well for you. I look forward to more journal posts!

Amy Osborne

Dear Sarah,

It's great to hear from you! Thanks so much for writing! I just heard a talk two nights ago from a researcher in Greenland who studied the Petermann glacier. He was talking about grounding lines and the impacts on the ice shelf of the percolation of fresh glacial water to the ocean. It was fascinating! You still have a few months to go...are you getting excited?!

Take care,
Amy

Zoe

Diving under the ice is my dream! Your journals are a great source of inspiration and motivation. Thanks Amy!

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